NOTICE!!

this is a notice for all that read my blog (which are probably not many, but anyways).

my posts for the next month will most likely be pretty boring.

i almost feel like crying. pathetic isn't it? she's been gone, what? a day? and already I'm sad. I don't think about it for most of the day. but when i do... this happens. I get all pathetic. stupid, isn't it?

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i'm glad you're having a good time, Karen. Have lots of fun, take lots of pictures!

Christina, we should hang out. I'm going to miss you so much when you leave. we should have another date sometime soon. Drew can come too if he wants.

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i probably won't go out a lot with people. I've seem to be in a slight anti-social mood right now.

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you know what's kinda funny? my mom is sorta encouraging me to find a boyfriend. its funny in my head, at least, but we all know that my mind is forever screwed up.

but i'm tired of waiting. i'm tired of semi-searching (since we all know that I'm lazy and do a half-ass job anyway). i'm tired of fantasizing about 'the one'. i'm tired of all of it.

i don't think i'm giving up, i'm just... something. not quite sure. maybe its just a mood i'm in. it doesn't really feel like giving up, just... accepting? but even that doesn't feel like the right word. i don't know.

it just is.

maybe i just feel like this cuz i'm sad. and feel like crying.

i hate crying.

maybe i should do it more...


love? i'm not sure anymore...